Perfect Chaos, A Daughter’s Struggle to Survive Bipolar and a Mother’s Journey to Save Her, was released May 8th! Thank you to St. Martin’s Press for the beautiful work on our book! We are a daughter (Linea) and mother (Cinda) team with a shared purpose of building hope and lessening the stigma for those struggling with mental health conditions. We have written a book together of our journey with mental illness. It is the inside story of Linea’s struggle through the diagnosis, treatment and acceptance of bipolar disorder and Cinda and her families’ pain, love and pride for her daughter in this fierce fight. We have learned so much from this journey and we hope that by sharing our experiences with honesty and compassion we can provide insight, information and hope for others in this battle. We want to provide information and insight to teachers, counselors and health professionals in their work and mostly to the brave people and their families that struggle with mental health conditions every day.
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Book updates: We had a book launch in New York City at the famed Alfredos of Rome in Rockefeller Center! Our family, friends, entire publishing team and the ever wonderful Glenn Close honored us with their presence. We have many interviews and wonderful reviews. Stay tuned for pictures and links!
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Hello from Linea
Welcome! We have created this site hoping to share our story as a means to fight stigma and promote support for those struggling with mental illness. As a young woman diagnosed with bipolar I hope to use my experiences to speak for those unable to speak for themselves.
As I moved through depression, mania, suicidal ideation, drugs, alcohol, an overdose, self-mutilation, and bulimia I knew I needed to make a difference for others struggling with the same demons. Hospitalized with a 24 hour one-on-one hospital aide I could not help but cry for those less fortunate than me. I cried for those unable to get the help they needed due to financial needs and many other issues.
As my mom watched me struggle and fight, and lived through the pain and trauma of possibly losing her youngest daughter, her position as an educator focusing on special education and adolescent behavior became exceptionally relevant.
In the past my goals of justice and community change were overwhelming and self-defeating, managing to crush my ability to act. Today, I have discovered ways to focus my energies towards a place where I can make a difference. In sharing my story and writing this book I hope to touch those struggling with the same demons. I hope to touch those who do not understand. I hope to give strength to those who do not know how to help their loved ones. I am ready to be a voice to those who are either unable or too afraid to share their wants, needs, and hopes.
After struggling with bipolar disorder, and seeking to educate ourselves as to the needs of those without resources, help, or the funds needed to seek aid we are ready to make a difference. We hope our story is helpful to educators, health professionals, friends and families of loved ones with mental health conditions and, most importantly, to those that know this struggle intimately.
Hello from Cinda
Although I teach about mental health conditions and disabilities in my work as a professor in special education I have learned that it is far more difficult than I ever imagined for a mother to watch her daughter spiral into suicidal depression and through the many other symptoms that accompany bipolar disorder. I did not expect to spend time in psychiatric units with my daughter while teaching a class on emotional and behavior disorders. I believe that it is only through the support of our family and friends and the amazing care of the doctors, nurses and counselors that we are all here today.
I still donít know all the answers but I have learned so much and in many ways our family has been strengthened by this terrifying journey. I have learned how many people are touched by mental illness and how many are afraid to seek help or share their experiences because of the stigma that is still out there. I hear from students who are afraid to share their struggles with anxiety or obsessive-compulsive disorders or depression because they are worried that it might affect their job search if others know their stories. I hear from people in treatment for mental health conditions that have been told by family members to never let anyone know about their illness. I do not want there to be shame in the treatment, management and recovery of mental health conditions!
In sharing our story I want to remember and honor the patients in the psychiatric unit that we came to know; those that we turn away from on the streets, those without family or insurance or kind care. I also want to thank and encourage all the professionals that work so kindly and respectfully with patients, clients and children from every walk of life.
I hope we can provide additional information and insight to teachers, counselors and health professionals in their work and mostly to the brave people and their families that struggle with mental health conditions every day. Our efforts are for a just and humane world for those in the darkness of mental illness and to join the fight for the supports needed to assure all a good and healthy future.